against the white wall: CEBU SELF GUIDED TOUR

against the white wall: CEBU SELF GUIDED TOUR

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recuperating

I know you. I created you. I am creating you. I have loved you from your mothers womb. You have fled as you know from my love. But I love you nevertheless and not the less however you flee, It is I who sustain your very power of fleeing, and I will never finally let you go. I accept you as you are. You are forgiven. I know all your sufferings. I have always known them. For beyond your understanding, when you suffer, I suffer. I also know all the tricks by which you try to hide the ugliness you have made of your life from yourself and others. But you are beautiful. You are beautiful more deeply within than you can see. You are beautiful because you yourself in the unique one that only you are reflect already something of the beauty of my holiness in a way which shall become through the transforming power of my love you shall become perfectly beautiful. You shall become perfectly beautiful in a uniquely irreplaceable way which neither you nor I will work out alone.

This is a passage from the book of Psalms. I am given comfort now by reading this. Oh, it won't be in a day or in a week for me to heal. But at long last I am home...and for now to immersed myself in the presence of my family though not perfect will suffice...I know how selfish it is but I long for my mom and her comfort...no need for words, no need to be a beggar for love...the assurance has always been there. In time everything will unfold...in time I would find the answer to the sign I seek. It would be so exhausting to reiterate but yes, the reason for all these has to do with falling in love, learning to love , and still loving...but I want to forgive too...want to find trust and security...and only if he knew...this time I want him..I need to see him fight for me...just this once...if only he is reading this...he will find ways to be with you no matter the odds, no matter  if he has nothing...even if only he has his love for me and his dream that would be more than enough...but please let me see him fight for me. Solely for me. For him. For us...and possibly his hope that we will be together won't be just wishful thinking...I could not stand and keep up alone...I too need to be taken cared of too...if only this time he knew that his decisions too would matter...he has the choice to keep all the promises he made...I did choose to begin with ...to be physically apart from him and I took the risk hoping now he will find a way to be with me..if only

Sad

I long to post new blogs and post pictures of my recent adventures. Sad..because my memory card got corrupted and all those pictures are gone. I'm hoping that I can retrieve them using the software for card recovery. I really am crossing my fingers on this. I can't wait to post pictures of Jules and me when we had our very first zip lining experience. Aside from writing about zip lining I want to write more stories about the special people I encountered along the way...the bizaare places and situations that I've been to and special things that I collected . So..I'd better not be sad and if ever ...just in case I lose my pictures I''ll just set my mind and just say to myself there will be new adventures..more travels will be in my itinerary and more photos to cherish ...

against the white wall: Artistic Attempts- Visual Diary

against the white wall: Artistic Attempts- Visual Diary

Artistic Attempts- Visual Diary

My Visual Diary

i am woman

part divine

Lost in space..according to Jules..hehhee but this my relationship with the moon and my femininity.

I have always love the moon and the connection I have with it. :)

he titled it as " Sanctuary"

Our personal sanctuary. I painted this by memory of how I remembered the setting in moalboal. This is my gift to him on his 30th birthday.

this is like a preconceive thought of what was to happen..after I painted this..it happened. Jules and I sailed using the seaturtle. we navigated the mactan waters and went snorkeling. we always love the underwater together. Most of the beautiful things things I saw underwater was beacuse of him.

sailing

an attempt to express my current state around the month of april 2010

despite all..i'd still wish to feel my own inner light is still alive within me

one of the painting I exhibited for the womens month together with the vagina monologues production way back 2002 in Lauremar

my signature; ping2x

So far, these are the pictures of my paintings that I was able to keep. Most of them are paintings from my soul. My bridge to the invisible. At times when I am lost for words to express what I feel or when there is something that never stops bothering me I just have the need to pour out this beautiful emotions. :)

daughters of the sea

I love the contrast of blue and yellow color on this banca.

we are daughters of the sea

I love this photo together with the lovely girls. I named them the daughters of the sea. They were happily playing by the white sandy shore of the Bantayan Island. Being with them reminded me of the way I was at their age when I go to the beach and create sand castles, as for this girls they are already contented rolling in the sand and filled with innocence just like the island. The island untarnished and uncommercialized I got to stroll at peace and relaxed as if the place is just your own. I'm glad I got to see , feel and embraced this place.

Shadow

walking hand in hand
hoping to leave the past behind.

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!

This line from the verse by Alexander Pope is the last thing on my mind. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Sometimes we try hard to forget but no matter how we do it it will somehow resurface ... but how I long how I long for that sense of spotlessness! Whoa! uhmmm. I guess we tend to forget when the importance of the event or person is slowly fading...we add new memories..when we took hold of our emotions...yes, I'd say again eternal sunshine! how pleasnt and lovely it would be when you start with a clean slate...refreshing!

against the white wall: against the white wall

against the white wall: against the white wall

against the white wall

When you are to face an emptiness to fight against, the dice has been cast...neither you win or lose.